淚雨

Monday, July 6, 2009

been to their blog to read about her post. somewhat my heart doesn't feel the same anymore. well. i know i'll be able to make it alone. tat's wad my frens always told me; strong girl. i'm not made strong, jus tat i dun hav ppl by my side to comfort myself when im breaking down. i told myself i can only depend on myself. no ulterior motives or taking advantages whatsoever.

reading about her talking about me. i wanted to answer her back. i really dun hate her. she just dun understand me but she thot she does. recalling back to wad my ex has told me. she say i'll continue waiting for him.. but tat's wrong. for me.. once the feelings has gone, i wont turn back. yeah, tat's me. part and parcels of life i guess. if i never let go and move on, i wont know whats waiting for me along my lifepath. heard from a fren of mine, which is a miracle tat we came to know; he told me she once committed suicide cus of her ex. suicide has nv been a alternative for me. it's just a cowardy way to escape from reality. i chose to face it, everything. go ahead, heaven try all ur might to struck me with more misfortunes. afterall it'll make me undestructible. =)

deep in my heart, i dunno wad i want. no goals in life. no love, no nth. gd or bad. depends on how each person decipher. nothing can either be great and peaceful, or lonely. let me enjoy this moment of peace while another challenge arrive. lol* i wonder if any guys were to meet me, wad will their reaction be? intimidated? perhaps. if one day i were to fall from a great height, and couldn't stand up anymore.. i may need someone. well, tat's jus my perception. no one will approach me. stop dreaming of any prince charming. fairy tale doesn't exist.

rained @ 5:36 PM