淚雨

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

went off for off today as usual.. Jaff didn come for work today.. always mia de sia. =/ tmr is xiuxiu off day. argh~ have to slog one more day before i deserve my break. heh* injuries again.. thumb hurts. T.T blade cuts and got pricked by splint.. mummy removed it for me using magnifying glass. lol*

kept receiving annoying msges from jason.. hais* how many times must i repeat its impossible betwwen me and him.. gave him lots of hints liao and kept a distance. the 1st time he told me he wanna jio me, i dun wanna hurt his feeling so i say let nature takes its course. 2nd time was 1 week ago, saying he misses me badly. =S wtF. i didn reply cus i can be blunt. and many other nonsensical msges saying he cant live w/o me.. he dun wan anything now except me. DUH. this is only one of the many. i couldn't stand it and i told him we can only be friends. but i dun think he'll give up. =/

wads so great about me anyways. i dun wanna be the bad one who break ppl's hearts. already turned down 3 good guys. dun wanna go to hell.. cant they realise my bad points..? im just a demanding girl who need lots of attention and love. i gave so much tat the other party had to leave me cus they felt they dun deserved it....

tmr night after work gg st james power station and justina asked jason along... LOL and she ask me if im okay with it. hurhur.. even she can feel it also. seriously if he go, i wont go. tc once said to me.. if u wan to forget someone u like, the best way is to stop seeing him/her and dun contact anymore. true enough. so i'll use this tactic on him..

i guess the two main reason for me to perservere in this job now is 1. high pay 2. stability
seriously i dread looking at dogs now. cus when i see them in their dirty, horrid state, i just freak out. why some owners dun take care of their dogs when they have this responsibility?! let their skin get rashes and ear infection... stinkies. im a groomer, not a pet care taker. signs*

this past week i've been surviving with one meal per day. dinner. jeff told me the ways to lose weight.. to seperate 3 meals into 5 meals as to increase body metalbolism rate.but im even lazy to eat. just wanna use my lunch time to learn more. boss see me he thot i wanna jian fei. hahah. but he's always kind enough to buy me drinks and today, herbal tea. =)) he said my cutting skills has improved. and now, he taught me different styles in a day. how can i remember. signs. maltese, cocker spaniel, schnauzer, poodle, westies, shih tzu.. now if i see a jack russel coming in, i'll be over the moon. hahah. think i better act dumb abit.
dun wanna stress up myself.

gotta catch some slp.. tmr a long night. =))

ciao!

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