淚雨

Saturday, August 15, 2009

been thru another day at work.. today was pretty tiring. my legs are feeling weak again.. nearly lose my balance after standing up from squatting down to pick up some stuffs.. abit giddy and my vision blurred a little.
i did a schnauzer myself today. boss was full of comments about it. kinda sad. i thot it look pretty gd. =( guess i didn't really rest enough last night again. was playing myself some sad theme songs. hopefully my neighbours dun find it a disturbance.
he finally came online.. chat thru abit with him. but mostly about his army. he seems fine.. just a little frustrated about the life inside.. hopefully he'll be able to stay happy and think positively.
hasn't been contacting with justina since den, anyways she got a bf.. just like sher.. sher always been away. i know she care and loves me alot but i really hope she'll text me asking about me.
sometimes im feeling depressed. we are all humans, but why do some like me had such a hard time in life? had already passed thru so much unhappiness..
had a bad childhood, no memorable primary school days, after going to secondary school.. days were slightly better. had my best cliques but i actually spend my everyday with my ex. neglected my friends and studies.. wasted. after he left me, i realised. but it's kinda too late, my O level results only entitled me to lousy courses in polys.. went for ite in a engineering science course.. thinking i will have a brand new start and progressing to sp. yet i forgotten my lesson.. love ruined me once again. been really stupid and an idiot.
sacrificing for loved ones, is it noble? or foolish..? these few days i've been asking myself . why.. never had an answer.

signing off~

love is like an outer space, full of mystery and its unexplainary. but as we put in effort, things can be discovered.. but to limitations.

rained @ 9:34 PM