淚雨

Friday, September 25, 2009

all was fine today;
until at night having dinner with mum and dad. -___-
i SWALLOWED my brbell ball bearing~ ohlala. senior did warn me b4 to tighten it daily but yea. i was lazy. ate rice and ate the metal as well. wondering y didn't i feel anything strange when chewing... duh. and i dun have excess barbells with me so texted senior. SOS. he'll be bringing two for me, thankfully.
today sis didn't come back home as usual.. quiet quiet now. without her as a chatterbox. mum's asleep and here im alone. hated the feeling of being lonely. listening to sad song tracks now to match my mood.
he texted me today again; telling me to please take gd care of urself..i'm v sorry to hurt u so much in the past. and dun reply.. now its past 12 and it's his bday.. cant control myself and i text him happy birthday. i'll forgive and forget. take care... was thinking not to send him this greeting.. as i know she will be beside him. but anyways, she wont get upset by this. knew her well enough. now, he has found his true love. better be.. dun wan my sacrifice to be wasted. thoughts going thru my mind; who'll be my mr right den? waiting for our paths to cross. feeling is the most important to me in a relationship.. the rest doesn't matter.
i'm gonna take my time to seek... if i found him, this time it'll last a lifetime.

rained @ 11:57 PM